Being a songwriter is a beautiful challenge. I'm grateful for my abilities and I've been able to use the act of songwriting as deep therapy. When I write, I dig into my mind and soul to find out how I'm really feeling. What do I feel good about? What is hurting me? Writing takes me to a fantasy land. Where the party is always fun, the love is always flowing, and any heartache is fixed with a melody.
My mind is constantly expanding. I welcome my emotions, whereas when I wasn't writing, I shut my feelings out. Sometimes it's hard, too. This pressure to constantly make something that people will enjoy and connect to. Because, part of it is, I write and create to connect with other people. If I go through a phase where I can't make any art, it's like falling into a black hole. If weeks go by and I'm not writing, I start to feel...almost useless. You know? I don't know if people really understand the emotional journey a writer/composer goes on to create a piece of music. It's cliche, but it's as naked as you can get. Being a creative person is all I have; when I give a song, sing a song, release a song - I'm giving all of me and leaving it for you to take with you, do with it as you please; love it, dance with it, cry with it - or leave it behind.
Writing for other people is a little different. It's a little less emotionally taxing. You get to collaborate with others and dig into their world. Parallels are drawn, but also new perspective on certain situations come to light. Songs can have completely different outcomes than you originally planned. Maybe a love song started out with a bad ending, and when you write for someone else that love song has the fairtytale ending. My favorite thing about writing is the opportunity to connect with other writers, finding out we are going through (or have gone though) the exact same thing. We can finish each other's ideas - it's really something special. That is the chemistry you should never lose. If you find those people, don't let anything come between that.
Writing is like a relationship, you have to know very personal things about one another. If you want to create a song with depth, a song that will transcend; you have to dive into each other's minds! You have to work on it, learn each other's thought patterns, what excites you both, what inspires you? It's personal and REAL. That's why I love songwriting - the realness you experience is freeing and refreshing. In a world full of blurred lines and messy people, it's essential to find what is real to you. That is songwriting for me.